Your Life is not a Search for Wholeness; It is Already an Expression of It. A Meditation
Stop trying so hard with your mind to find a purpose for your life. It will get you nowhere.
Instead, still your mind and go within and you will experience the inherent wholeness which is at your core. You will “know” that you are a god/goddess in finite form who has come forth to temporarily take on your present personality so that you can expand your ability to be a conduit for and a manifestation of Love.
As Carl Jung said, “All of reality is not thinking.” Actually most of it is not. Reality is a feeling or vibration. You can’t understand anything unless you become one with it, unless you get inside it, unless you “feel” it from the inside out. So go within and feel first. Use your intuition and not your cognitive mind to find out who you are.
The word intuition comes from a Latin word that means “to look or know from within.” So, learn how to go within and you will definitely “know” that your life and all of life is already whole. You no longer need to seek to find your purpose through a teaching, a teacher, a relationship, an experience, etc. It’s all there within you already. You are whole already and no longer need to look outside yourself for validation. Just quiet your mind, open your heart and look within!
I know that all the above may seem rather esoteric, but I can assure you that what awaits you when you go into the Silence is so much more than any words can express! And once you have experienced it you will know what it means to feel and be “whole!”